colour me gray

yesterday you kissed my spine to keep it together.
yesterday i tried to burn off the lipstick marks you made.

today you tried to put together my jigsaw puzzle of a brain.
today i tried to hide the pieces i'd left on the ground.

tomorrow you will try to help a lost cause.
tomorrow i'll pretend i don't care.

the clock ticks, time flies.
the ground shifts, children cry.

kiss my eyes so i won't see the contact lenses i wear to
colour the world something else instead of gray;
and i'll kiss your mouth so i don't have to hear
something you'll regret.

_{if you pretend not to care anymore i'll probably fall apart.
if i show you the way i love it best you'll run.
but this world is too short for "if's" and "but's"
we need to make room for "and".}