cowboy runaway

i don't want to hear how
irrational
feelings are.

i don't want to hear how
irrational
i'm being.

i just want to hear that
you miss me too

but maybe i'm lying to myself.
and maybe i'm jealous because another
girl can be there for you.

maybe i'm broken, useless and used up.
maybe i've never been any good for you.

maybe i should just move on.

MAYBE I SHOULD SCREAM SO YOU COULD HEAR ME.
_{because whispering never worked.}

i'm lost and your feet were always planted so
firmly you could never run away with me.

i'm angry and you can't hear it anymore.
the tears on my face are real but
the cold in my heart cracks like
your ribcage.

I'M SHOUTING NOW HOPING SOMEONE WILL HEAR IT
_{but i know no one will and you loved that about me}