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Monday, December 6, 2010

Something Exciting!

I joined Stampin' Up! as a demonstrator.
I am able to sell you products and hold workshops.
But I'm also able to show you "how" to do some techniques.
My mom does hold classes that I will be helping teach more often then learn.
So check out her blog for info on SU! and on classes :)

Her Blog:
Her Stampin' Up! Site:

Saturday, November 20, 2010

The wet and the cold collide

It's gross the amount of snow that's on the ground and it's only november …





We haven't put the tarps up yet because no one really expected snow so soon. Well here's one girl who isn't looking forward to the wet and the cold. Two things that shouldn't go together.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Location:My house

Monday, November 15, 2010

So. Nanowrimo....

I signed up for nanowrimo.
I know. I'm totally crazy to sign up halfway through.
But I figure it's worth a shot to get my creative juices flowing and hell.
Maybe I'll finish a novel?
Or at the very least bring about the beginning of a new one.
I've only got like four in progress XD not including collab ones *rolls eyes*

Am I totally insane for wanting to do this?
I want to have successfully finished at least one novel in my life.
Well insane or not. I'm moving to a better writer.
A better personal writing without being so personal.

I'm gonna try to stay away from using personal experiences as a writing outline.
Which I know *gasp* impossible. But that's my goal for this month.
I'm gonna do my best to make it all fiction.

I'm hoping this will be a solid plan.

Friday, November 5, 2010

and all the chickens are let loose

Someone once told me never to count my chicks before they hatch. I suppose I pre counted and I'm paying for it. I'm trying to get my shit together and bundle up all my chicks. Unfortunately This probably makes no sense to people who aren't too close to me. I must admit that I have a tendency to get ahead of myself and I am currently being swallowed by school work. I was looking forward into the future without looking back into the present. So as the mountain of paperwork looms over my head I'm going to do my best to stay in the now and trudge towards the future. - mekamouse

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Rolling Around In My Head: An Elephant Disappears

Rolling Around In My Head: An Elephant Disappears: "Suddenly, I lost existance. I was waiting patiently in the airport, quietly watching people go by. My luggage was stacked up next to me and..."

Monday, October 4, 2010

Apologies!

For the people that actually bother to look at my blog I apologize to the boring amount of non-updates. If blogger had a blackberry app I'd be on blogger more often. XD

But in all seriousness if any of you watch my deviant-art account you probably are worried by the last thing I posted. It's dark, looming, and about a young girl with an alcoholic father. I'll be honest with you this is NOT a personal experience. I have never had an alcoholic father. But my mother had a close male friend when I was young that WAS addicted to alcohol. I loved him like a dad in a weird way, I guess more of an uncle really but the fact is he was a big part of my life at a young age. So having someone who was NOT violent physically but was incredibly unstable and often emotionally and mentally abusive towards my mother effects how I see alcohol and the people who drink it as a form of entertainment, because while it may not be AS dangerous as drugs it still can be unhealthy for you.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

I'm so excited for tonight!

Tonight cyndi lauper is playing at the pne! EEEEE
Fangirl squeal!!!!
I'm so psyched.
She's so talented and can sing like 8 octaves!
GAHHHH

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

free verse (roman numerals)

l. today the wind blew like ice melts.
slowly, breaking apart.

tomorrow the ice will crack
and i just might fall through

yesterday the wind blew right through me
i felt like i might have broken apart


ll. tomorrow my heater might explode
leaving me with scars even you can't kiss better

yesterday i will smash my heart into pieces
and you will watch with tears in your eyes
because you hoped you could hold it one day

today you will kiss each piece i left on the floor
and carefully piece them back together



lll. yesterday i lied about how i felt
so you could pretend that we are all okay

today i watched you lie to me
so we could pretend it was alright

tomorrow we will make up
because the bed will be
much too empty without
you/me in it and our
hearts will never mend without
your/my presence



lV. tomorrow i will kiss each scar better
because my lips seem to cool the burns

today i wasn't home when our gas
stove exploded in your face

yesterday i realised i will sob
when i wasn't there for you



V. yesterday our dreams were torn to shreds
by someone as savage as i used to be

tomorrow the odds couldn't possibly make a difference
as our love consumed us like the flames and the moth
but with less third degree burns

today we made up like fire
our sheets crinkled and crackled like popcorn
and love refused to go out

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

wow addiction

so my wow account ran out of time.

i started going back to childhood games.

have you guys ever heard of a company "gpotato"?

they make this awesome game that's a lot like wow called "rappelz" its really quite fun.

i'm deciding if i want to download anything else from the site because they make great games. and all of them are free!

AND CHAOS BEGINS!

SO I'm basically in charge of the house for the next week.
And the kids, and the dogs and my cat.
But tomorrow is gonna be a beach day so I'm happy with that.
Gonna swim and watch the fireworks.
Hopefully someone will have a portable radio!

Monday, July 19, 2010

again i haven't been....

again i haven't been a very faithful poster. ...
are you guys mad at me?
i had a very relaxing weekend away from computers and just life...
now i'm back and it's chaos.
it's more chaos then when i left and i think i am the pillar in a lot of ways.
that drives me nuts but that's how it is.

i wish things could change but that's just not how it works.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

video game crazy

I don't understand it.
My boyfriend is totally obsessed with a game called StarCraft.
The company that makes the game is OBSESSED with perfection.
(They also are the makers of WoW which I play)
The problem with perfection is the reason why StarCraft ll
took something like TEN YEARS to come out after it's first game.

He got the pre-release so he'll be lining up at midnight.
He got the beta game so he's test-playing before the public.
He has literally starting playing now all day
(before it was WoW but at least then I could play with him)
and has abandoned the game of WoW.

I don't understand the obsession. 10 years waiting for a game that is STILL imperfect?
I don't understand playing the beta game (not liking it) and moving on to BUY the game you didn't like... All for a dedication to a game that was sorta good .... 10 years ago.

I'm literally not going to see him for like three weeks or however long he takes him to beat the game ... Because the game is basically gonna come first. GAHH. Shit that's what I get for dating a nerd.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

oops

wow. i actually sorta forgot about my blog.
i must admit i've been addicted to WoW.
World Of Warcraft. Yeah. I'm a WoW-head...
I've also been concentrating on schoolwork.
I'm finishing my math course (in summer school).
I've been working really hard and I've been doing a lot better.

I watched Australia. OMG what a heartbreaking movie.
It's about the Second World War and a young half-blooded boy.
It was horrible and tragic how everyone was just blown away.
I couldn't believe the destruction and terror everyone felt.
The forests burned. The islands burned. And the children were torn apart.

Wow.

Friday, July 2, 2010

wow long time

hey guys. trying to think the last time i posted...
it was a while back.

I haven't been writing a lot and i've been focusing more on school.
how's it going with you guys?

Monday, June 21, 2010

cowboy runaway

i don't want to hear how
irrational
feelings are.

i don't want to hear how
irrational
i'm being.

i just want to hear that
you miss me too

but maybe i'm lying to myself.
and maybe i'm jealous because another
girl can be there for you.

maybe i'm broken, useless and used up.
maybe i've never been any good for you.

maybe i should just move on.

MAYBE I SHOULD SCREAM SO YOU COULD HEAR ME.
because whispering never worked.

i'm lost and your feet were always planted so
firmly you could never run away with me.

i'm angry and you can't hear it anymore.
the tears on my face are real but
the cold in my heart cracks like
your ribcage.

I'M SHOUTING NOW HOPING SOMEONE WILL HEAR IT
but i know no one will and you loved that about me

Monday, June 14, 2010

collab effort

on dA i got everyone to be involved in a collab where I write a starting sentence and they write how they feel after that and then the next person continues from the last sentence written. i only wrote the first and last sentences :)


current collab process.

by *MekaMouse

i'm catching fireflies and watching the breeze with the same enthusiasm as you
when you catch colours on your tongue and watch my frozen breath in the winter.

You used to try to find the end of the rainbow, not for gold, but for the adventure. I asked to come with you, you said 'always'

But we all know that always doesn't last forever.

Like melted snow in a city street, or thoughts floating in the breeze.

The words you whispered to me so long ago have vanished now, stealing away the tender passion with which you held me.

They linger about my mind, catching me unaware at awkward times, like the minuscule moment between dream and reality.

But now, reality is a dream and the dream is a nightmare.

And this isn't the nightmare you can stop. You can't wish it away; you can't open your eyes if they were never closed.

But I'm stepping out of the dream machine I was kept in, your hand in mine we swore we'd be unstoppable.

first part: me
second part: *ThatUsernameIsTaken
third part: ~Scattle
fourth part: ~beautifulmindhazard
fifth part: ~angelicXimperfection
sixth part: =CaronCecilia
seventh part: ~Kn1ghtofDarknes
eighth part: ~Scattle
ninth part: me

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

that's a matter of opinion because when you know me it's not a matter of right or wrong just what's best

that's a matter of opinion

by *MekaMouse

i'm watching your insomniac pleasures fill my bleeding pores.
i'm filling your dead liquids with kerosene as the cigarette slips from my fingers.

your comatose mind is filled with hidden doors
but your crazed body is filled with speed
and i can't watch you do this anymore.

you are filled with candy coated wishes
but unfortunately for you i grew up.

you are filled with butterfly kisses
but i never did like pretty things.

i'm filled with kiss-it-better love
but you are bleeding on my carpet floor
that i tried so desperately to keep clean.

i'm filled with i-want-it-now
and you are too preoccupied with
not-right-now-i'm-busy-with-work.

you are filled with a college budget
but i want champagne baths.

your mind is filled with grocery shopping
and i just want to eat (you)

i'm filled with reasons to leave
but you still want me

i'm filled with potholes and cracks in my asphalt makeup
but you come equipped with drywall filler and a steamroller

you worry that one day we'll run out of excuses
i worry one day we'll run out of love
you worry we'll end
i worry it will be violent
you worry you'll die alone
i worry i'll have to bury you...

current collab.

if you guys remember a while back i posted asking for someone to do a collab with me. Kn1ghtofdarknes was willing and able. So we embarked on our little quest. We are doing a collab about our d&d (dungeons and dragons) characters. This is what we have so far (typed out) it's a little rough around the edges and we are working on editing it a little more but this is the basic storyline so far :)


A small halfling rogue is on a barstool by the front. She laughs and swirls her stool while talking to the gentleman next to her. Her words slur while the gentleman nods and smiles. The bartender told him to “play nice because she doesn’t always.”

A sly elf mingles throughout the bar, looking for a quick job. He passes the halfling smirking “just another drunk girl” he thinks to himself. Laughing and jesting with some people then moving on when they have no work for him. Suddenly he sees a motley crew walk in the bar. They stride towards the halfling. “I can not just let this pass. Besides, perhaps someone with work for a mercenary will see my skills and hire me” he thinks to himself.

The halfling doesn’t notice the company of people enter the bar. A male human strides in front with a female elf close by his side. A female half-elf and a male shifter walk close behind the two. The gentleman beside her was keeping her interest until she felt a tap on the shoulder. She spins her chair to face the person behind her. “Hello there.” She says a faint glimmer of mischief in her eyes. “Lidia. Do you know anything about my girlfriend’s purse going missing? Seems it disappeared about the same time you left the group...” Lidia’s laugh was loud like the sound of bells. The human’s eyes became hard. “Seems filling because if I recall right I was never given my share.” Lidia smiled. The humans seems thrown off. Then all of a sudden his elf girlfriend pipes up: "She did. She just took mine." A knife is thrown at her, but she catches it. "That wasn't very nice now was it?" Her grin widening. "Sorry barkeep. Seems this crowd ain't the friendly type." The barkeeper laughs: "Never is with you Lidia."

The elf mercenary overhears the exchange and seeing the dagger knows a fight is about to break out. He knows that the elven bows would be useless in a bar, so he walks towards the human and taps him on the shoulder and says with a smile on his face, "Excuse me, but what kind of fight is it when four people gang up on one small halfling?" At that the man tries to draw his sword but the elf was faster by far and his two swords slashed across his abdomen. One cut started to burn as though acid was boiling away the skin and the man was rocked by a sudden bolt of electricity that sped through him. He fell to the floor. Shifting his momentum he kicked the elf in the chest which sent her flying into the table behind her where some of the men who grabbed her did some, unruly, things to her and had her pinned.

Lidia laughs at the human while sitting on the bar. Suddenly the half-elf comes running at her. She catches her dagger flying through the air and throw a silvered shuriken at the shifter (who is mildly annoyed by it. not killed. it's just werewolves who can be killed.) The half-elf starts screaming in elvish: "You've killed him. May the light take you." (Lidia can understand Common, Draconic, Deep speech, Abyssal, and Giant so she don't know what she is saying) She catches her and throws her on the bar. The halfling’s eyes catch hers and she whispers to her with teeth bared: "Run now. You've worked with me before. You know what I can do." She pulled herself off the bar and high tailed it out of there. She then runs to grab the female elf when the elf mercenary pulled her aside "Leave her. Besides what do you think you are doing? I had it." My grin widened and she laughed. "You think I'm drunk. Look mister. I might be drunk but I could still slit your neck blindfolded. But I also know it's not right to leave a woman to the mercy of a mercenary. Now get your hands of me and fight and just remember. I might be a "small halfling" but I've seen more death at my own hands then anyone else's." (During this the shifter picked the silver shuriken out of his shoulder. The feeling burning him he dropped it on the floor and ran out of the bar muttering to himself how he didn't need this.)

The elf laughs and concedes to help the halfling, suddenly very interested in her. As they walk over to the table where the elf is being accosted, the mercenaries back down and release her. The elf gathers her things and sees the human lying on the ground still smoking from the electricity that arced through his body and flies into a blind rage, throwing herself at the mercenary. He deftly catches her hand, brings it around to her back, releases the knife at her belt and slits her throat, killing her instantly. He then lies her down and says "Lilain, fuh ashai." Then he crosses her arms and tells the barkeep to bury the two together if he can.
Lidia is apologizing to the barkeeper. She gives him some money for the proper burial. She looks at the elf and tilts my head to the side: "What did you say to her? Just now."

"Once an elf's love is given, it can never be given again. It was a mercy for me to kill her, and I told her that she will be joining him soon to love each other for eternity. So what was that about being able to slit my throat blindfolded?" I finished with a smile.

"Thank you for explaining your culture to me. I'm always curious to learn. I never paid attention in class when it came to culture and I wish I had. It saddens me that you can only have one love ever. I wish I could be that trusting with one person." Her lips curling she turned to look at him with mischief in her eyes. "Yes sir I could. Death has followed me most of my life. So in turn I give death something to be appeased by. My life can not be shown in one small measure but my skills could." At the other end of the bar someone started to clap. As the man started to clap, Lidia turned to him with curiosity in her eyes. She turned to the mercenary beside her one eyebrow cocked with sarcasm as he began to speak.

"Bravo, what a spectacular show you two performed! Would you be interested in some work my friends?" The man said, a sinister smile crept onto his face. He wore common merchants clothing, with a gaudy display of earrings and jewelry. It's amazing that no one seemed to notice him. "You are a good judge of skill my lord. I Falian Blurstrike, formerly of the Blue Fang shall take you up on your offer." "Excellent, now what about you my dear? Care to make some money?"

Lidia turned and faced the mercenary beside her a smile in her eyes. "Blurstrike? A count to how fast you can move in combat yes? My curiosity must be showing when I ask you how is that you came by this name? I'm sure you were not always so quick. Also Blue Fang? I'm sure there is some intriguing history there." The merchant getting more and more impatient as Lidia talked her voice starting to irk him. Her eyes showed kindness but the blood on the armor she wore meant business. His temper rising as she pushed each and every one of his buttons. "I see your temper rising there. Tell me your name." The redness in his face showing and the clear loss of words his friend stood up beside him. Lidia looked at his friend and stopped him with a single stare. "You. You are the man who hired him yes? He clearly didn't fit in here so to distract from you. His voice is booming and loud as well as his shape." The man made a disgruntled sound at "shape".

"My name is Al'Shaw. I am the man you would be working for yes. I am surprised you noticed so much even though you were fighting." Lidia grinned. "I noticed while I was talking. I am a girl. I can multitask ... And as for the work you speak of. I prefer to know what I'm signing up for before I actual sign my name in blood. I've dealt with the devil before and I decided I like my soul."

colour me gray

yesterday you kissed my spine to keep it together.
yesterday i tried to burn off the lipstick marks you made.

today you tried to put together my jigsaw puzzle of a brain.
today i tried to hide the pieces i'd left on the ground.

tomorrow you will try to help a lost cause.
tomorrow i'll pretend i don't care.

the clock ticks, time flies.
the ground shifts, children cry.

kiss my eyes so i won't see the contact lenses i wear to
colour the world something else instead of gray;
and i'll kiss your mouth so i don't have to hear
something you'll regret.

if you pretend not to care anymore i'll probably fall apart.
if i show you the way i love it best you'll run.
but this world is too short for "if's" and "but's"
we need to make room for "and".

Sunday, June 6, 2010

liquid dreams

My heart snapped for the same reason your spine did, fear.
It was always both our faults and never less painful.
“Kiss my vertebrae better and I'll fix the gaping hole in your chest.”
But you never could trust me and I couldn’t work on the faith we might love without pain one day.
Our blood spread in a crippled circle around us,
Our lips full of whispered screams,
Our tongues suppressed by swollen ruptures of time.

Tell me you wanted more then licked wounds and kiss-it-better cuts.
Tell me you wanted more then promises on the fly and miss-you-more lies.

tattoo redhead

today my sister is giving me tattoos on my feet.
don't freak. they are fake. but awesome.
my sister will be a pretty good tattoo artist someday I think.
at the very least fake tattoos XD

Friday, June 4, 2010

Credits

Btw totally forgot to give props to the person I bought my contacts from: Coslenses
Check 'em out?

Thursday, June 3, 2010

So

So I'm trying out mozilla thunderbird.
It's a mail application.
Meh.
Let you know if it works XD
Been trying to catch you the way the ocean hugs the shore. I've been stuck watching lunatics and depressed megalomaniacs tell the world who never accepted them that they are the ones at loss. I'm caught in a torrent of calm as my eyes flutter shut.

Watch my heart grind to a halt as you kiss my spine. Your lips soft and lush. Your shadow creeps in my room the way "open" flashes like a neon sign outside my door.

old poem

"Nevermore" I said to you.
Your eyes became questions tickling the edges of my mind.
"Brush my neck with your teeth, and kiss me with your shadows."
An old me once said: "Because then maybe the bright lights will fade me away..."

I cried silently for the loss of that person you once knew.
Mayhaps I'm speaking in riddles only because myself I confuse.
"Lenore" you called to me through the darkness,
"Lenore, oh my lost Lenore."
I just wanted you silenced.
I had finally found the despair of darkness and didn't want it taken away from me.
"My lost angel, Lenore." Damn you Edgar. 
I loved you once but by my name you call me away from this shoreline.

So as a raven I came to you in a waking dream. I sat upon the bust above your door and waited for you to notice me. But as I was a bird I could say but one word. "Nevermore"

I cried to you as you asked me questions rephrased over and over again.
I had hated you for calling upon me in my paradise but now I knew that you had merely been driven sane with my death and so had lost all thought of reason.
Ah my love. I knew you once as insane, driven mad by the drink in hopes of keeping in touch with reality while slipping into the underworld. Yet you wanted nothing more then to fall away beneath the boards of your floor, where hidden away lay your broken heart. I wanted to know if it still beat for me but all I could utter was "nevermore", I wanted to know if you were doing well but no other words could be released from my beak.

You called me "thing of evil, a prophet still if bird or devil." You asked me if I still lived on some distant shore, merely away from your undying love. I killed you with my black greedy eyes and my silently relentless tongue. I watched your sanity return to you with black shadows creeping by your fireplace and I watched as your house burned to the ground around you but still I sit on the bust of Pallas just above your chamber door, merely because I may not return to my night's Plutonian shore.

By my name you called me and here I sit, waiting and watching for when you die. For then I shall return to my tempest seas, dragging your soul with me, into the very depths of insanity and I shall show you the meaning of the word i n s a n e. I shall show you the meaning of the word s o r r o w, and your soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor shall be lifted - nevermore!

My other contacts

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

NEW CONTACTS!

I'm in love with them.
I also got a green pair.
Which I will upload at a later time. :)
Seriously they are really nice and fit really well.
They kinda cut off the edges of my vision a little. but meh.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

AWESOME SORT OF UPDATE!

School ends 6 days from now.
I have till the 7th of June.
OHGODHELPBLARGHI'MGONNAFAIL.
But ... yeah.

The end is NIGH

So today is the end of school for me.
I got cut by like 2-3 weeks and wasn't told till like end of feb.
That kills me!
I feel like crap because I've got like nothing done.
GAHHH!
Oh well I sent my counselor an email and hopefully they get back to me....
I really hope they do because I would like to graduate sometime ;)
Oh well. Ce La Vie.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Gone to the dark side.

So mama got a student discount at the mac store because evie is my sister XD

Anyways ...
She got a macbook pro, classes from the mac store, a free ipod touch, and a new printer.
It's a really nice system and well made.
I think she'll have a hard time breaking this one XD
I'm hoping that this will last her a long time.

I think it's a great upgrade and it's a lot better for business and work usage then her pc was.
It's simple to use :)

Sunday, May 30, 2010

NOOOO! HELP?

Hi guys. It's MekaMouse from dA.
So dA has decided to kick me out but NOT on other people's computers.
JUST on mine. I can't stand when they do that :(
Seriously it's bothering me.
So I apologize if my groups or whoever try to reach me and can't!

Super excited about club

YAHOO.

My mom's technique club is today!
Check out her blog for details on it.
We should have pictures up by next week of our finished products :)
PaperDreamers

MekaMouse

Friday, May 28, 2010

I'm so psyched.

I'm so happy. Our d&d group is FINALLY getting together to work on making new char sheet for everyone.
'Cept I seem to be the only person that retained anything from our last campaign on how to play, how to make a char sheet or just ... do basic attack rolls. It's kinda sad really.... Though sad for me or them I dunno.

Also I seem to have become the historian and end up writing everyone's histories. -.-
I missed playing Lidia though because she is the girl I'd love to be.
The whole point of d&d for me is an escape world.
It's like books with ... other people simultaneously reading the same book next to you at the same speed and constantly talking about the best plot shift.

 My little brother is dming though. I'm a little worried 'cause I get the feeling he might pick on me should I pick on him >.<

Oh well. I'm gonna get back to working on a char sheet with my boyfriend who wants to look like a draenei from WOW. *rolls eyes* He's gonna play a drow/tiefling girl. *mumbles* crossdresser *mumbles* Seriously all the char's he plays are girls. Meh oh well.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

my newest free verse collection: glass poison

Today I watched as your poison lies ribboned around my intestines dissolving them with a black acid. Today I was sick of your petty crime and wanted a life bigger then guns and sex (like passion and murder). Today I was told my metaphors were too large and my imagery too vivid for an adult to understand and too dark for a child to read.

The days are blurring together and I can barely see past all the haze. The worst part is when you go from seconds to months and then fade into years. I wished you could catch me but your faded ink skin can barely hold the feather quill you once carried.

I decided today that showers are better then baths because when tears run down your face you can't feel the difference. And when you are sitting on your shower floor under the hot water hoping your skin will disintegrate, your organs will evaporate and your bones will melt. Maybe just maybe the pain of all the memories you loved will be burned away from you.

Four of the little birdies who fly together whispered: "come play with me. We'll drift on currents of air and catch all the whispered prayers on a wind." But one little birdie whispered so softly: "run away with me. Run away and I promise you'll have more then air currents and whispered prayers. I promise you'll have the touch of god to save you and a nest safe from storms." Too bad I was never a bird. Because that offer was the best one made.

But all this isn't real. And you are a fiction made up of fairy tales and puppy dog tails. I just wish we could be more then dreamers and more faithful then a broken heart.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

WOW my mom has skill XD

So I give up. She sliced her toe open. It's bleeding everywhere for like 30mins. At first she thought it was the dog then akita. finally figures out it's her. i clean up the blood we get to the dentist. and four hours later it's still bleeding through everything and she didn't want to go to the clinic *rolls eyes* finally get her to go and they polisporen it, bandage it and tell her to keep off her feet. .... fat chance ...

oh my life is always interesting...

Monday, May 24, 2010

DW anyone? (not arthur's little sister ;)

I was just wondering if anyone else is watching the fifth season of DW (Doctor Who).
I watched the first. (Loved it)
I watched the second (addicted)
I watched part of the third and I couldn't keep track of the day or time it was on.
They kept switching it. (I know he's a time lord but i'm not :( )
I didn't watch the fourth at all because I fell out of the groove (I'm so ashamed.)

But I watched the first episode on Space channel of the fifth season and instantly fell in love again.
For some reason the PVR machine recorded the First, Fourth and Fifth episodes and skipped over two and three. I have since watched two and am going to watch three when I get home. But I've fallen in love with the series all over again. It helps that Amy Pond is a total riot and I love her. And that the fifth Doctor is a total hottie. Like sex-c, yum, omg now kind of sexy. And he's a total riot. I like that he caught the essence of the Doctor and the Doctor from the second season. I hope he stays a while :)

But seriously if you haven't checked it out at all. Please do. I need someone to talk to about it :)
Also it's fun, full of magic, and a lot of great pointless plots. ;)

Saturday, May 22, 2010

HI guys!

I've now started a blog for my mother and her friend.
PaperDreamers
She is a paper crafter and they have all sorts of cool ideas.
She will soon be uploading photos (well I will ;) )  of all the crafts she and Julia have made together or apart.
I'm pretty psyched about this :)

Friday, May 21, 2010

So far...

I'm so excited about this collab I'm doing with Kn1ghtofdarknes.
We are something like halfway through the first chapter of our story.
Our d&d characters are in a bar and I started a fight (of course).
He comes in and bails me out (but I don't really care about him "helping a small halfling").
I laugh at him and tell him what I can do with a blade.
He kills two of my attackers and I wound two (telling them to run out of the bar which they do.)
He has been so brilliant to work with and I hope that we can continue this story for a while.
It's been so much fun rediscovering my character as well.
I'm hoping to get back into d&d come june.
I am having a meeting with my dm on sat (as well as our previous dm).
I'm the historian in our group so wee-hoo. XD

Anyways that's all for now.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

WOW

So i'm going to get a game card for my wow account today.
Hurray money I shouldn't be spending XD
I'm already broke. Seriously.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Doing okay.

So I have started working on a collab with fellow deviant KnightsOfDarkness.
We are going to start a story with our d&d characters.
I'm really looking forward to it.
He has a pretty cool character and I miss my character.
Check out his gallery. He's got a cool character (only a few submissions up about his though).

Thanks for checking it out guys :)

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Better?

Hi there,
I have been feeling so much better.
I still have a dry cough but meh.
I have started a llama trading group on DeviantArt.
Link: Selling-Out-Llamas
In case you guys are interested.
I'm a super new group AND it's the first time I've ever been an admin by myself. :D

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Trying to start a business

So.
I want to start a something.
Selling jewelery, cards and my books.
Would anyone be interested in any of that?

If anyone writes and would like to collab?

Hi there,

If you are interested in writing or just learning.
I am willing to do a collab with someone.
Please post what you would like to do
and how you would like to contact me. :)

Oh btw.

If anyone is interested.
I'm a WOW player.
Server: winterhoof
Main char: Falera

What I tried to crack open

Poetry again:

today i tried to crack open my ribcage
in the hopes that my heart could get
some sunlight because then
maybe just maybe i could feel some
warmth in the crevices of my cold
frozen heart.

yesterday i tried to freeze dry my
heart so that when i finally got
the courage up to give it to you
it wouldn't be all bloody and
wet.

tomorrow maybe i'll finally realize
i need to learn to let go of
everything i thought i had
and move onto to things i
know will help me crack open
that ribcage of mine

So I'm up now

Why am I still awake?
Because I can't sleep due to lack of being able to breathe.
I have a lung infection that isn't going away and not going a hell of a lot better.
Had it since the 9th (sunday).
It's rather sickening actually.
Enough about me for the moment.
This is for all Cancer patients or loved ones who know what it's like.
Poetry time:


today i watched you become blind
in order to shut out the world around you.
you never did like watching violent movies
and you always hated seeing bullying in the schoolyards.

yesterday i watched you become deaf so you
didn't have to hear my coughing so loudly in bed.
lying there praying to god sleep would come
but ending up waking myself up because my lungs would close.

tomorrow i'll probably watch you bury my
still warm body in the back of your trunk.
my mouth taped shut and hands bound
but don't worry. it's a mercy killing.

better then dying alone with my hair falling out.